yeah. tmr we will be having our first movie tgt ^^
let's see. we have quite a lot of stuff le xD
like - the friendship band - bracelet - rubber band -
wanted to get the same bag but it's out of stock =X
tmr we are getting the same design of op shorts^^
as usual, i choose the black. darling's green.
dummiie wanted the brown one.
da fong and duckiie have the purple and white :D
still, i think the same bag will be very cute :))
five people walking ard with the same bag. ADORABLE :P
sadded- duckiie nv blog here b4 T__T
sadded- huize is going poly. but she will always be one of the s17.

dao`huuii-

Saturday, June 24, 2006

yeah! internet back le!
sad.. i noe too much things tat's why i sad?
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子。。。 最大的温柔是掩饰嗎?

等待 我随时随地在等待 做你感情上的依赖 我没有任何的疑问 这是爱
我猜 你早就想要说明白 我觉得自己好失败 从天堂掉落到深渊 多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?) 重新再来一遍(just give me a chance)
我无法只是普通朋友 感情已那么深 叫我怎么能收手?
但你说 i only want to be your friend 做个朋友
我在 你心中只是 just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白 但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i 我不能只是 be your friend, i just can't be your friend
我不能只是做你的朋友 不能只是做普通朋友

忘了是怎么开始　也许就是对你　有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己　已深深爱上你　真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓　是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随　那个疯狂的人是我
I LOVE U 无法不爱你, 说你也爱我 I LOVE U 永远不愿意失去你
不可能更快乐　只要能在一起　做什么都可以
虽然　世界变个不停　用最真诚的心　让爱变的简单
I LOVE U 一直在这里, 一直在爱你 I LOVE U　永远都不放弃　这爱你的权利
听我说　爱你 (yes I do)
~~我爱你

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

this blog is almost purple, black and orange in colour =X no green no other ._." dots dots.

hmmm, just want to tell you all good lucks for your mid yr! and jia you wor~ :D

take care. and i love ya all. ^^

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

i'm so sad tat i can't go for the bbq..
i'm so sad tat things always dun go the way i wan it to..
i'm really sad..
为什么我不能操控自己的命运呢？

在命運前，我們甚麼都不是。。。
我陷入万劫不复的地狱了嗎？



我只想要。。。

喜欢是一种动力，是不需要努力的，也努力不来的。。。
i feel like asking him... '你在努力嗎？'

i nv thought tat i'll fall for some1 in my whole jc life de lehz.. wad happened?
how long is tis going to go on?
will there be ending? wad will be the ending?
if there is ending, can it come faster?
so tat my pain will be shorter......

i really like u

b l i s s e d * 5:32 PM

Today was another fishing day.. reach home late lehz then wait for my turn to bath.. now 3 le, still haven slp..

It’s SO cold at east coast, the wind doesn’t stop blowing de and so poor me caught a cold le.. =x oh ya.. saw dao hui’s 2nd bro there.. both of us saw each other and were like so shocked la.. lolz.. today I cycle till the very end, the resort there, wrote words on the sand and took photo of them.. also start to get a bit zi lian.. =p
then at 10 plus, my sis and my aunt saw 2 guys keep looking at me while they walked passed me so they asked if they were my classmates.. but pls la, they had already walked passed, how do I noe wad they look like??? Maybe they are juz trying to guess whether I’m a gal or boy lehz? Cuz my sis say tat I look like a boy with the cap on.. and I think so too.. wad de… -_- feel sad tat I missed out the look of the 2 guys.. wad if they are really frenz of mine? Then 2 guy together at there alone at such late nite.. I might haf missed out a gay couple lorz!!! Sad, sad, sad.. =(

Mum still dun allow me to go for bbq lehz.. nvm.. I’ll try again later although chances not high.. come on la.. let me go can?

Haiz.. something really think tat I’m crazy de lehz.. do stupid things tat are useless.. =x dunno wad’s wrong wif me lorz.. I’m juz too stupid.. I really dunno how to talk to him de lehz.. always playing game, dun need to study liaoz mehz? I wan to noe wad’s happening between him and his ex so I’m always keeping track on both of their blog.. tis is like so dunno wad la, but I’m really scare lehz……

b l i s s e d * 2:50 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006

06S17 ROX!!! =) the workshop was so fun towards the end la! cool class bonding and team work! i luv 06S17! wah kao leaders... moo... haha.. =D

read his blog.. finally updated.. lolz.. hmmm.. read le, wad quite shocked, he actually blog tat there's 2 ppl in his heart.. xia dao la.. then i read on, feel so heart pain for him la.. =x really got no one u can trust mah? can u open up? i'm here.. althought i'm a lousy listener.. =x think ur ex will aso be there for u de..

我不知道你到底在执着什么。。。不过，你以后只要不开心或是遇到难过的事情，告诉我，我会听的。。。 tis is a promise from me.. =)

b l i s s e d * 9:59 PM

mm I shldnt be online trying to post this post rite now.. yea. Haha cos my fever jus subsided, and my runny noce is still haunting me. xD

Tmr got the leadership workshop day 2, so by rite I shld be on the bed trying to sleep. Since stupid blogger cannot enter.. I type in Microsoft word 1st. I guess this shall be my truest entry so far, since only 4 or tentatively 3 of u will read this, and maybe a few days later. pls let this blog remain a secret like always. =D unless exceptionally worthy to mention to another person.

Mm after reading the last part of 绝对男友, its really touching. And it triggered me quite abit. How hard it really is to miss someone, if he wasn’t coming back. Or been mine in my case.

Actually I didn’t wan to talk abt birdie at all with u all. Jus keep it inside me. Let things jus pass like it always did.. but deep down I am jus like everyone else, I also wan to figure out how he thinks. Can say we get better and worse and better over a period of time everytime, from the way I talk and the way he says bye, I know we aren’t close. He treats every other people in a v friendly way, to me its jus different or less than a fren.

Anybody dumb wouldn’t be soooo dumb to really not know I like him quite a bit.. from my gd nite msgs, to bday present plus letter, valentine’s day choc, and lack of normal reaction towards him hence not talking to him in front of choir mates. And since from somebody’s big mouth almost whole choir knew abt it.. okays I still couldn’t think how fated we are to be in the same clique and there I got stabs from her.

He didn’t do anything. Really nth. He nv replies my gd nite msgs, though can see he’s surprisingly happy to receive my presents and thanked me, but he nv tols me whether he liked them. After a few months when I asked him he liked the bday chocs, he jus told me he haven ate them, still putting it there inside his fridge. =__=”

But he didn’t avoid me either, he still says hi, in msn and in sch, even outside sch tt time when cycling alone. Lol. Still talked to me v nicely, still smiled.. duno.. but he would nv take the initiative, nvm is it msn or in sch.

all along in sch my eyes wld be where he is, but thank god I minimized tt to the minimal. Its been 1 yr plus. How I wish I can jus live for myself.. to look out even more for everyone else tt is more worth it. This yr began nicely, but still my stupid cowardliness still led to no where. After nus’s performance, he and her grew more close than before. Or since after going aust they have been quite good le, jus somehow things got better between them when I didn’t do much.

Jus how da fong feels for sa, I guess when I finally not talk to dan or show him concern, he doesn’t feel anything ba.. mm actually he doesn’t need a person like me. He’s got lotsa frens cos of his high EQ and charm, and he god and his family to love him..
Can I forget abt guys for the moment? I really need to concentrate on my studies.. yea I need to.

Nvm. Its time I shld let go. Heys forgot to mention, lao shu is jus an appetizer. I nv know whether we even secretly hate each other since tt time, like tt lao shu nv knows when he would jus settle for one girl. but at times im happy to talk to him. Thinking how good it wld be if its not him but…

Well shumin.. wake up from ur own world. Start studying full time.. no time to waste, if not I really die. =X

Dummie.. im reallie one. Haiz

Still hearts u all =) fun time at da gee’s place being the bao mu. haha``

b l i s s e d * 1:40 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

ＭＶＰ情人 ROX!!! =)

last 2 time i watch the show, i really hate angel.. tis time round, although i still dun like her, i feel a bit sad for her.. she juz use the wrong way to like a person.. at tis point of time, i will think back, really hope tat i nv used the wrong way to like a person..

「我，太子，喜欢你田羽希。我发誓，我一定要追到你，我要你跟喜欢篮球一样喜欢我。我要你的生命中，除了篮球之外，还有一个我！」

so cool ritz? he said tis with so much confidence, so pei fu la! hmmm.. i pity 太子 lorz.. he keep helping 小希 in whatever ways he can, but somehow i got the feeling tat she's juz using him.. =x

he say compare to others he treat me very good le, but he dunno tat tat's not wad i wan.. haiz.. he's treating me as others lehz.. =x

i cannot do until 太子 tat good.. i oso can't do until angel tat extreme.. so think i'm tat type meant to be forgotten.. think slowly, i'll let it go..it's all about time factor, isn't it?

不要害怕会忧伤难过 也不要担心会孤单寂寞 你可以放心的去面对 因为我会一直在你身边 朋友也好 情人也好 我的肩膀是随时都能让你依靠的。。。

b l i s s e d * 4:42 PM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

haiz.. dunno wad to say.. i think all these would nt haf happen if i noe wad he is thinking.. the prob is i oso feel very lost myself.. wad to do? wad i can do? wad i should do? wad i should say? wad should i do? i'm scare tat wadever i do, i'll regret it the next min.. i'm scare tat i'll make the wrong decision..

i should nt haf gone home late yesterday..
i should nt haf behave tat way on tues..
i should nt haf call him..
i should nt haf such a high hope on it..
beta still, i should nt haf noe him......

i'm so sure tat he got something to say today.. y he say nth??? so i'm still nth in the end la? dota oso can be more impt.. haha.. then jiu let it be tat way lorz......

should i meet him to go to sch tml? meet for wad? u oso nth to say wad.. maybe i'm asking too much le la.. we r onli friend mah.. juz like a hi-bye frenz ritz?
u once said tat friendship is 2 way.. but for tis friendship, is it only 1 way? or u r giving in in a way tat i dun see? or is it, u r taking mi for granted?
i dunno.. i still can't get it.. wad r u taking mi as?

b l i s s e d * 9:40 PM

wow.. 24 hours nv contect him le lehz.. long record.. haha.. how long can i last??? think i should be able to get over it de ritz? anyway i gt 1 whole month wad.. jia you..

长长的路上　我想我们是朋友　如果有期待　我想最好是不说

你总是微笑的你　总是不开口　世界被你　掌握

月亮绕地球　地球绕著太阳走　我以为世界是座　宁静的宇宙

今晚的天空有一颗流星划过　在预言著什么

在无声之中你拉起了我的手　我怎么感觉整个黑夜　在震动

耳朵里我听到了　心跳的节奏　星星在闪烁　你怎么说

你心中一定有座　浓雾的湖泊　任凭月光再皎洁　照也照不透

你眼中闪烁湖面　无边的温柔　那波光在　诱惑

你已经有他就不应该　再有我　世界的纯真此刻为你　有迷惑

我想我应该轻轻　放开你的手　我却没有力气　这么做

b l i s s e d * 1:59 PM