mm I shldnt be online trying to post this post rite now.. yea. Haha cos my fever jus subsided, and my runny noce is still haunting me. xD
Tmr got the leadership workshop day 2, so by rite I shld be on the bed trying to sleep. Since stupid blogger cannot enter.. I type in Microsoft word 1st. I guess this shall be my truest entry so far, since only 4 or tentatively 3 of u will read this, and maybe a few days later. pls let this blog remain a secret like always. =D unless exceptionally worthy to mention to another person.
Mm after reading the last part of 绝对男友, its really touching. And it triggered me quite abit. How hard it really is to miss someone, if he wasn’t coming back. Or been mine in my case.
Actually I didn’t wan to talk abt birdie at all with u all. Jus keep it inside me. Let things jus pass like it always did.. but deep down I am jus like everyone else, I also wan to figure out how he thinks. Can say we get better and worse and better over a period of time everytime, from the way I talk and the way he says bye, I know we aren’t close. He treats every other people in a v friendly way, to me its jus different or less than a fren.
Anybody dumb wouldn’t be soooo dumb to really not know I like him quite a bit.. from my gd nite msgs, to bday present plus letter, valentine’s day choc, and lack of normal reaction towards him hence not talking to him in front of choir mates. And since from somebody’s big mouth almost whole choir knew abt it.. okays I still couldn’t think how fated we are to be in the same clique and there I got stabs from her.
He didn’t do anything. Really nth. He nv replies my gd nite msgs, though can see he’s surprisingly happy to receive my presents and thanked me, but he nv tols me whether he liked them. After a few months when I asked him he liked the bday chocs, he jus told me he haven ate them, still putting it there inside his fridge. =__=”
But he didn’t avoid me either, he still says hi, in msn and in sch, even outside sch tt time when cycling alone. Lol. Still talked to me v nicely, still smiled.. duno.. but he would nv take the initiative, nvm is it msn or in sch.
all along in sch my eyes wld be where he is, but thank god I minimized tt to the minimal. Its been 1 yr plus. How I wish I can jus live for myself.. to look out even more for everyone else tt is more worth it. This yr began nicely, but still my stupid cowardliness still led to no where. After nus’s performance, he and her grew more close than before. Or since after going aust they have been quite good le, jus somehow things got better between them when I didn’t do much.
Jus how da fong feels for sa, I guess when I finally not talk to dan or show him concern, he doesn’t feel anything ba.. mm actually he doesn’t need a person like me. He’s got lotsa frens cos of his high EQ and charm, and he god and his family to love him.. Can I forget abt guys for the moment? I really need to concentrate on my studies.. yea I need to.
Nvm. Its time I shld let go. Heys forgot to mention, lao shu is jus an appetizer. I nv know whether we even secretly hate each other since tt time, like tt lao shu nv knows when he would jus settle for one girl. but at times im happy to talk to him. Thinking how good it wld be if its not him but…
Well shumin.. wake up from ur own world. Start studying full time.. no time to waste, if not I really die. =X
Dummie.. im reallie one. Haiz
Still hearts u all =) fun time at da gee’s place being the bao mu. haha``
b l i s s e d * 1:40 AM
The CLAN-
name: dragon clan
start of legend: 27 march 2oo6 special dates
__``o1.o1.06``__
the dragons-`
* dao`huuii
|| 18.o2.88 || single || adorable n cute^^ || keys & locks || black.white ||
* dum`miie
;; 15.o4.88 ;; attached ;; bears ;; chocolate ;;
* dar`liing
|| 21.o4.88 || single || stars || green ||
* duc`kiie
;; o7.o8.88 ;; attached ;; donald duck ;;
* da`fong
|| o1.11.88 || single || purple ||
wanted - list -
[+] t-shirts
[+] op shorts
[+] skirts!!
[+] good results for promos
[+] go out go out :)) [+] kbox
[+] cycle
[+] study!!
[+] roller blade
[+] puma bag
